Ah, the Wonders of Youth

Can’t Do It Alone

- I can’t do it alone.

You kick, you cry, you scream, you beg and you pray for someone to come along. One day you’ll understand as you’re lying there looking up at everyone who is flying over your head. 

- Pick me up off the floor.

One day you be back to where you started. Do you really think that someone else will come along, keep picking you up, and keep watching over you? Do you really think they won’t have a life of their own to start? 

- I can’t do it alone.

Well, you’re gonna have to one day.

How can we trust and put our hopes into our Government when you know that there are flaws that they don’t even TRY to fix? The U.S. doesn’t have free health plan for their people, their friends and family; they lie to us, we believe them and we don’t see it. We suck in their words and fake lives and soon we don’t know who to trust anymore. We don’t know if the President, the people in government, we don’t know if they are trusted or if they will lie to us like the other people did. Why do they lie to us? Why don’t they try to just be honest? Maybe they won’t do anything that is good.  

For shame, the human race. What have we become? Why are we so cruel, greedy, such liars; we can’t become honest with our own people. We just hope for the best, we just hope for our dreams of a true home will come true, and those who run for President, they lie and we just dream too much and try to put our hopes onto one person when that person is a liar. That person will only strive to achieve THEIR own dreams.  

What I wish for is to have people open their eyes and care about everything. Please care about those who are in need, please don’t judge them cruelly, laughing at their struggles. Please help whenever you can, please don’t be selfish and keep everything to yourselves when you don’t even need it as much. Please. I think about those who have more than enough and those who have nothing at all and I think sadly.

I am those who have almost enough and almost nothing but I wish I had the ability to go out and help.  We overlook the most important things, we overlook the fact that we should be helping each other, caring, to survive. We will die; we will lose in this fight just to live, because we do not care about one another.  

World’s Ugliest Woman?

No. I say she’s beautiful. Actually, Im ashamed of you people, calling a woman ugly. You should call her disease ugly, not her looks. The disease is ugly but she’s so pretty. Her looks, I say is beautiful, her soul, I say is beautiful, her disease is ugly. Do you get what Im saying? 

You people judge a person by how they look. Does it surprise you that she has a thoughtful heart? That she’s so much beautiful than you in every way. That okay I guess. It’s ALWAYS the ones who are judge cruelly that are the kind hearted and the ones who judge that are brainless.

Come on!

Dont tell me that you have a harsh life. Don’t tell me that’s why you start off as a failure. Dont be stupid! You have a harsh life, be a model for those who NEED hope, as you did when you had noone. Be strong, do good! SHOW THE WORLD YOU CAN STAND TALL AND BE A GREAT PERSON, NO MATTER WHAT HELL LIFE THROWS AT YOU. 

You were my wish: To have grown with a ruined childhood and grow to be someone more better and stronger. If you failed, you make me sad. You shouldve been better. You shouldve held your chin high and say proudly, “World, here I am. Someone with a strong heart, someone that someone else can look up to and want to be. I wont give up.” But you failed, you complained and gave up. You are allowed to cry, you are allowed to scream, but you just lied there and gave up….

I dont want to look at you, whoever you are. I dont want to know you. 

America Too Greedy?

Health insurance. Why do us Americans have “everything” but not free health insurance? Why do other places, other places that we call ” worse” than ours still have the free health care than is? Even the terrorist and Guantanamo Bay have better health care than THE GOOD CITIZENS.

What happened? What happened to the times when the US was known to have have the nice heart? Where’s the nice heart that should be taking care of the people in need?

I know you dump your patients on streets. I’ve seen you deny a person because they cant afford to pay the unbelievable bill that you left on their desk. I know you come up with little excuses to deny in helping a person. You call yourself a doctor, a savior of life? What about the lives that you COULD’VE saved if you hadn’t turned your head away from the ones REALLY in need?

America, you’re known because of your pride, your cool self but you wallow in too much of yourself. Selfish you are. If you really were the best, why do we still not have the free health care that others do? Why do you keep the money to yourself? 

Certain Things

Certain things I just dont get. Certain things like actions, judgement. You tell me. Why do I understand things that adults dont? Why do I see their mistakes that they say other people are making? 

Certain things I just dont understand. Like, why do people worry about little things that are not that big a deal? Why are big things not that important and the little things are thought of too much?

These things I dont understand.

1st Amendment

Tell me if Im wrong. Tell me if Im not getting it. 

The 1st Amendment is supposed to allow you to have free speech, right? It allows you to express yourself freely, right? Then tell me this:

If a transsexual was going through a transition, and thats the only way they can express themselves, their TRUE selves, how come they get punished for it? How come they get threatened, picked on, kicked out of society? 

Also, some certain things we say, I understand if it’s cruel, racist, harmful, etc, but if we just want to make a point; why do we still have harsh consequences? Freedom of speech is it? 

How come when you just want to be yourself you get punished? Why cant you be yourself, Im sure you asked that question already. Why? You cant be the person you want to be? You have to hide yourself inside or youll be lonely? Why do people make it so hard? 

✿*Sweet TOP*✿: TOP'S OH MOM: behind its creation.

A Moment

A moment here and I am forever happy. A moment there and Ill be miserable again. So a Moment here I will cherish forever.

How They Choke Me

When I think of the bad things, they create a twinge in my chest. When I think of bad things that happened to my loved ones, they make me unable to breathe. To keep them safe and knowing I can’t do that drives me to insanity. The bad things, oh how they choke me. They grip their claw fingers around my neck. Breathless, I am. Oh you bad things. Oh how you choke me.

Painting of Words

To start a written thought using words that could draw in a person’s eyes, that’s what I want to do. To write the words that express the way I feel in creative ways, that’s how I want to speak. To have the vision of what I see, of how I see things, printed onto a sheet of paper in words, that’s how I want the world to see what I see. I want to use my words to say what is in my head and create art with them.

You Don’t See Me The Way I Do

When you say those hurtful things, they don’t encourage me to be better. They bring me down. For years I’ve been criticized and have had hurtful words thrown at me. They all bring me down. But they made me love myself for who I am more. I LOVE MYSELF. So you should see that even though you tell me to change myself, I won’t because I don’t need to change myself to be accepted by you. The most important person that I need approval of is from myself. Because if I don’t love myself, how can I stay strong through your critics? What you just show me is that you don’t like me for who I am. That hurts because you’re family but at least I know that I don’t have to do anything nice for you because, well, you’re practically saying that you disown me, the way I see it. So I will go on, strong, and I don’t have to worry about needing to be perfect and not myself in other people’s eyes.

Is it?

Is it MY fault that I tried to help you?

Is it MY fault that you did those things?

Is it MY fault that you got angry at me for telling you that those things you did were wrong?

Is it MY fault that I tried to make things right?

Is it MY fault that I wanted what was best for us?

Is it MY fault for telling her the truth about you and him?

Is it MY fault that you lied to your best friend; me, your friend; her, and him?

Is it MY fault that you chose to lie to your friends ex about her cheating and stole him away and then LIED to me that you didnt have anything to do with it?

Is it MY fault that you lied?

Is it my fault that you did those things, so I got tired of being the one who kept apologizing when it’s YOUR fault, and left.

If it’s not my fault then why am I being punished?